My struggle with lust and how I overcame
I want to speak with my fellow male counterparts. Please ladies close your eyes. It is non of your business. My brother, let's talk man to man. You know we men have these natural tendencies in common. For instance when we look at erotic images or motion pictures, we have urge for sex, you notice erection of the organ and a hunger for the real thing. Yes. It is natural. God created man that way, if it doesn't happen that way, if you get married, how will you impregnate your wife? Those who never felt like
But I have not come to give you a sex education. No. I have come to give you a knowledge on the implications of having sexual urge with someone who is not your wife, as God had ordained it.
In wedlock, sexual intercourse is Holy, and pleasing to God. Yes He made it that way and reserved it for married couples.
When I genuinely encountered Christ, I gradually ceased from being natural. It took time. I read and heard the word of God that said that that "natural" tendency of having sexual urge is carnal. Though It is natural but if one becomes born again, having a new nature, that urge dies with the old self. It only comes online when it is for Holy purposes in God's Will in marriage.
My confession
May I announce here that among the sins I struggled with during my early Christian life, sexual urge was the strongest. At a point in life, I considered it normal, if not, why must I remain under the yoke after making all the effort to quit? It was because it took me years that seemed endless. I must also confess that I fell prey to different seductions especially from erotic movies, websites, music and ladies I see on the streets. Yes. Though I was a believer then. I don't pass a beautiful lady without looking at her figure eight, from face to breasts, buttocks, legs. Yes. I was guilty of lust as a believer back then. I always had the urge to go into relationship with ladies, though not for sex but to gratify the urge. As a result, I opened the gateway for the spirit of lust to take over and I became possessed. I lost total control of my sensual body such that I engaged in secret sin like, watching pornography, and ejaculating, even as a believer.
I lost my salvation totally, but on the outside, I still lived holy, doing the church things as usual. I maintain my good reputation as a genuine believer but I was rotten inside. I knew I was a big mess. I pretended but was dying inside. My spirit once whispered to me that I would soon enter into perdition. It shocked me to bone. Perdition. God forbid.
Do you know the meaning of perdition? This is the opposite of perfection. In our Christian journey, we run the heavenly race to attain perfection, becoming like Christ. It is a point of no return. At the stage of perfection, which Paul announced, when he said he had finished the race, we wait to be raptured or taken to glory, no matter the age whether young or old. Perdition on the other side is a point of no return, whereby grace has elapsed or expired. Satan and his cohorts are in perdition. The door of grace has been shut up against them. So also are many souls shut out of grace while they are still alive on earth, simply because they crossed boundary line with their sins and entered into mortal sin.
Paul explained why, he said every other sin is outside the body, but the sin of immorality is against our own body. May I inform someone reading this post that the only sin that leads to perdition is immorality. Ask Paul. Whether it is only in the mind, without actual sex, they are the same thing. Jesus said whoever looks at a woman and lust in his heart has already committed immorality in his heart.
Immorality includes watching porn, sexual thoughts, masturbation, sex chat, watching erotic videos of movies, music; it also includes reading novels, books, websites that tells or shows immoral images or stories.
Do you know Sirens? These are ladies with perfect beauty viral on the internet but they are hybrid demons. They reproduce through sex betwen demons and humans. Whether it happens through dream or it happens physically. You hear about spiritual wives and husbands. They reproduce in hours while normal human beings should reproduce in a gestation period of 9 months of conception. The Sirens are here with us. Many of them are on the internet. They don't have souls. There is nothing like conscience. That's why they derive joy in nudity. They are pornstars. They destroy even marriages with their sexual simulations. They are also here with us, in the churches. That sister you assume to be a strong believer, maybe one of them. Their picture on internet are as strong and active as their physical presence. They defy the law of time, gravity and distance. Just a glimpse on them, whether half naked or completely nude, their demons will posses their victims electronically and live inside of them physically. These are spirit of lust. I became their victim.
Their only goal is to defile God's temple. Once they have done that, their mission is complete.
Paul wrote that defiling our body is tantamount to destroying our soul. Paul added that whoever defiles God's temple, him also will God destroy. They took advantage of God's word in making Him destroy souls by Himself. When God destroys, who can save them?
But it is our decision that makes it possible because the devil cannot decide for you. Just a little thought, "let me see this".... you enter. 7 years of salvation is gone in one minute.
Destroying a soul here means that the soul has been relegated to perdition. A point of no return. A point where no amount of prayer or repentance can bring you back to God. Paul said at this stage, it is impossible to receive grace again. This was dawning on me and making me uncomfortable such that I had to leave everything and entered into 21 days of fasting and prayer, studying the word of God, after which I underwent serious deliverance for a second time.
I repented severally, it never worked. I prayed and prayed, tried the first deliverance, it didn't work. I continued until the last one worked. It was like hell on earth to be under the yoke of sexual spirits. My dear, if you have given your life to Christ but you are still having this challenge, just know the truth from me that you still need deliverance and sanctification not salvation this time. Salvation without sanctification is useless. Yes. If you die like that you are ending up in hell. Or you may not come out of it if you don't run for your soul now. God's time is "now". Not later or tomorrow. The danger of it all is, if one is under satanic yoke, the devil can do anything with his soul, take his life untimely in order to take away his chances of restoring his salvation. The devil creates problems, here and there, or keep you too busy to attend fellowship, weaken your prayer life, sap all grace out of your life. Taking you closer and closer to perdition. God forbid.
But when I got delivered, I had boldness to testify.
For a very long period now, I have never had sexual urge or lust or anything immoral. Not even the slightest of it. If I had not been there, I may not have the testimony to share. But it was the love of God and rare grace that delivered me. Many souls never restored their faith after fallen. I have known some of them who told me that they had lost it and cannot return. They have tried all they could but to no avail. But that will not be the portion of someone reading this post. I leave you with some scriptures below. I advise you that is reading this, if you have the same challenge, meet a genuine pastor or deliverance minister in a genuine church. Note that most pastors are agents of darkness. You can inbox me to recommend a church for you. I am not saying you are to change church. No. Just go there to get delivered so that you will deliver others suffering similar cases in your own church. The scheme of the devil is spreading like wildfire all over the churches, without an exception. But only those who overcome till the end shall be saved.
Leviticus 20:10 And the man that committeth adultery with another man's wife, even he that committeth adultery with his neighbour's wife, the adulterer and the adulteress shall surely be put to death.
Proverbs 6:32 But whoso committeth adultery with a woman lacketh understanding: he that doeth it destroyeth his own soul.
Matthew 5:28 But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart.
2 Peter 2:14 Having eyes full of adultery, and that cannot cease from sin; beguiling unstable souls: an heart they have exercised with covetous practices; cursed children:
1 Corinthians 6:18 Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body.
1 Corinthians 6:19 What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?
1 Corinthians 3:17 If any man defile the temple of God, him shall God destroy; for the temple of God is holy, which temple ye are.
Hebrews 6:4 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost, 6:6 If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.
1 Timothy 6:9 But they that will be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and hurtful lusts, which drown men in destruction and perdition.
Jeremiah 6:30 Reprobate silver shall men call them, because the LORD hath rejected them. Romans 1:28 And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient.
Hebrews 10:26 For if we sin wilfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins, 10:27 But a certain fearful looking for of judgment and fiery indignation, which shall devour the adversaries.
10:38 Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him.
10:39 But we are not of them who draw back unto perdition; but of them that believe to the saving of the soul.
If you believe to saving of the soul, then kill that self to save your soul.
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