Don't be so much about who's at fault

You'd both lie down facing opposite directions of the same bed, both acting busy with the phone or pretending to be asleep. Action would be so close yet so far away. Frustrated, you'd both drop the phones one after the other and pretend to sleep, hoping that your move will trigger a reconciliatory move from the other. 

Your eyes will be closed but your senses wide open, painting a very clear image of every single body movement coming from the other side of the bed, hoping that one of those moves would be a hand in your direction....hoping, just hoping.

Next comes the tossing and turning that would be done again, hoping to trigger something.... again, hoping, just hoping.

Finally, the sigh of giving up and sleeping, having wasted hours hoping, just hoping.

The next morning will begin in more frustration and anger for even betraying yourself enough to descend to hoping, just hoping......and worse, without results.

You'd both leave for work angrier than you were yesterday and it just continues till it feels like there's no way back.

If you are lucky and you make it out of the eye of the storm, you'd remember someday and ask yourself why one of you didn't just say sorry.

If you are not as lucky, you'd continue to be bitter but someday too, your mind will come round and ask you why one of you didn't just make a move.

Please, I beg you with all you've got, all you are and all you hope to be. Don't let ego destroy what you have. 

Don't be so much about who's at fault as much as you'd be about who fixed it.

Peace.

-Shamseddin Giwa